HoldOntoMe

This song speaks volumes in the way

so many of us in this life feel. It speaks

from my soul how I feel in this life over

you. In all that we have shared, never

has there been a day that I wasn't here

for you, in what ever way the need be at

that time for you.

My life has taken a turn I never saw

coming. In loving you, I have found a

purpose unlike any I've seen. For once

I want to share so many things, so

many things I want to experience, so

many ways I want to say I love you

everyday of our lives.

With all the things in this life that we are

uncertain of, there is one truth I have

found I can trust, my love for you, the

way I would give up to you anything

that I felt at that time you needed, to

keep you understanding you are the

love of my life, the one I want to spend

eternity with.

For so long I have felt you trying with all

you had to hold onto me. I in turn, was

doing exactly the same. You were my

dream. I had to hold onto that at all

cost. I can't let this love just die. I can't

let you just walk out of my life.

Though I know its hard to do alone, it

takes 2 souls to share, to be together,

and to feel the love between each. You

keep part of yourself securely and

safely tucked away, as if fearing you

will be hurt, or the cost of loving me

freely will be to high.

There is no cost too high for love, if the

one you share this most amazing

emotion with is willing to give the same

in return. But the love has to be there

for both, one soul cannot carry the love

for both. My soul seems to be in a

place that I feel now, that I am the only

one here loving any longer. I am the only one holding on.

What a sadness it has brought to me,

the unknown, the uncertain , the

questions. Does he still love me? Has

it all died? Is he still holdng onto me as

I am holding onto him, with all my love?

Forever, these question's are now part

of my life. Will there be an angle

coming into my heart to answer and

once again bring that fulfilling light into

my soul ?

I want desperately to hold on, hold onto

the us that was once here so perfectly.

But my soul tells me that time has

passed and there is no longer anything

to hold onto, I can't do it alone so I am

left to wonder now is this the beginning

to letting go of what once was, what

once was here ?