What makes me stay?  Why do I still, after all these years, always wait for you.  Why am I always here for you, no matter the cost.

No matter the pain, the tears, or the hurt.
Everytime you leave, I say no more, I can't
play this game again.  I have to let go, move on, and heal.  But when you come back, with that all familiar "hello", the promise that you
will never leave again, just keeps me hanging on.
Your smile captivates me each time.  The
sweet words that you say, every phone call, takes me back to a place I so long to be,
there, with you in my ams.  But my heart tells me it's a game I can't win, as you are still not free to give to me all I want and need from you.

I need to know how you feel, what is in your heart for me.  Is there anything left, or has it
all died over the years?  You say its still
there, but I need to see it from time to time.  I need to know.
No matter what the cost, the distance, the hurt, or the  pain at that moment, I have been here for you, standing here offering all I have, waiting for you to offer me what ever you were able to.

Always wanting more, always needing more, but for one reason or another, it never came. Funny thing though, what little you did have to offer was always enough for me.  Always enough, just as you were always enough for me.
Now I am asking for more.  More than tears, more than loneliness, more than heartache, and more than hurt.

Please hear me.  I need more.  Please don't promise me more than your soul can freely give.  Please don't promise me more than you are willing to offer.  Please don't take my heart, and ask me to forever wait for you, when you know you can't be here.

Now I am asking for more, for myself, for you, and for the us that I believe is still here.